The Beginning....

So after years of reading other people's blogs, I'm really going to do this.  Lol, for me it's scary as hell.  I'm always willing to share the 'inner most' me with others.....oh that's not a problem.  But I usually only do it with those that are close to me.  Or in a small group.  But here.  The potential is huge.  And I really do not like having the attention of lots of people.  Tough.  Suck it up.  I'm here.

For two reasons.  One I want to practice the skill of 'writing' and 'sharing life' in an interesting way.  I have a project in mind (for my own gratification) of writing a story of my life.  Oh, not because I think it has been 'book-worthy' (so far) or even all that interesting.  Just because I like to take on challenges, and stretch myself in ways I've never attempted before.  And mostly ones within myself.

Lol, and what better forum than this.  Plus I'll never really know if anybody is reading it or not.  Could eventually be two people.  :)  So it may continue to feel like a 'safe place' to practice.  And I might actually have a few people run across it, that can offer me constructive feedback (please).

Second, I'm inventing a new part of me.  It turns out that life has shown me that the largest part of who I have 'been' up to this point, well, that person's changing.  Hmmm, maybe I have misspoke.  I think that the largest part of who I have been has been there all along.  And hasn't really changed in the most important ways. I just was not paying attention to that part of me.  I let 'motherhood' and 'children' be my focus, as if those aspects were the most important part of me.  Maybe they were, but they are not anymore.

So I'm on a journey to figure out exactly who this lady is, without the defining attribute of 'mother' that has been almost my only focus during my adult life.  This forum offers me fear (of readers, criticizers, or even a rude person or two) that will keep me a little more 'aware' as I venture forth.  Possibly helping me to gain more insight than if I was just 'ranting along' in my journal.  And it also offers me the possibility of a comment or two from someone, who resonates with something I've written, that will give me insights along the way.  So here we go.  Let's see where it takes us.