It has become apparent that it is very difficult to make sure you blog every day, even if you are only making the effort during the week. Here it is, almost bedtime, with a few household things that still need to get done, and I haven't even looked at blogs today. Especially mine. That's definitely NOT what I wanted this endeavor to be.
I wanted it to be a 'safe' place to explore how I felt, looked at life, and figure out in the process, where I'm going from here. The 'every week day' agenda I gave myself feels as if I've pressured myself into 'performing' on here. Which sorta makes me smile....since I'm pretty sure if anybody who knows anything about blogs, read mine, they'd say I've been doing the 'farthest thing' from actually giving a good performance. :-)) So I'm gonna restructure. I'm not going to tell myself I have a certain 'time element' to post within. Or try to make themes for my blogging topics. I'm going to post when I have a few moments to do so.
And I am just going to type about what I think. Not about life in general or to share my great thoughts. But to capture some of the thoughts that run through my head sometimes. There are lots of them, sometimes.....unfortunately. And I would like to lasso a few of them to 'focus' on my future. Not long range plans or what I want to be when I grow up....not sure that is ever going to happen. But rather be able to focus them to figure out what I want to do in the short range. How I want to guide my life, as I continue on this journey.
I AM at a place where I will be making some decisions in my life soon. Choosing among the 'forks in my road.' I'd like to choose in a way that truly serves what is deep inside of me, and takes me where I want to go. So I'm going to say 'good night' and get ready for bed. And you'll see me when you see me. (smile) I really think the likelihood of actually having a real reader is going to be miniscule anyway. But that is okay. Doesn't mean I still can't accomplish my goal. I'm going to keep imagining the You who is reading. And I do have a great imagination.
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